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  1. A businessman met a beautiful girl and agreed to spend

    the night with her for $500. They did their thing,

    and, before he left, he told her that he did

    not have any cash with him, but he would have his

    secretary write a cheque and mail it to her, calling

    the payment 'RENT FOR APARTMENT.'

    >>

    On the way to the office, he regretted what he had

    done, realizing that the whole event had not been

    worth the price. So he had his secretary send a cheque

    for $250 and enclose the following typed note:

    >>

    'Dear Madam:

    Enclosed find a cheque for $250 for rent of your

    apartment. I am not sending the amount agreed upon,

    because when I rented the place, I was under the

    impression that:

    #1 - it had never been occupied;

    #2 - there was plenty of heat; and

    #3 - it was small enough to make me feel cosy and at home.

    However, I found out that:

    #1 - it had been previously occupied,

    #2 - there wasn't any heat, and

    #3 - it was entirely too large.'

    Upon receipt of the note, the girl immediately

    returned the cheque for $250 with the following note:

    ' Dear Sir:

    #1 - I cannot understand how you could expect a

    beautiful apartment to remain unoccupied indefinitely.

    #2 - As for the heat, there is plenty of it, if you

    know how to turn it on.

    #3 - Regarding the space, the apartment is indeed of

    regular size, but if you don't have enough furniture

    to fill it, please do not blame the management.

    So, Please send the rent in full or we will be forced

    to contact your present landlady.'

  2. Hi all,

    9 yrs ago i took a lot of drugs stying awake weeks on end when money and drugs ran out i crashed like a plane hitting the earth i was paranoid for 5 yrs i did not go out was gonna kill my mom was gonna kill my freand and my self i was lost i thought god was watching me i could not look at any body i thought people could read my thoughts it was farked i had a little girl and my brain was fixed ???????

    So,how do you feel now?

    KB

  3. Hi Yukon,all,

    A wonderful,funny,sad movie.It has Clint stamped all over it,which is a good thing,IMVHO.No spoilers ahead,but to see Clint playing a bigot,was a shocker!Check out 'Bird' if you have never seen it,CE was and is a huge fan of Jazz,...

    KB(All that)

  4. Hi all,

    I'm no stranger to mental health Issues, for 7 or 8 years now, sadly. I also have other issues I'd rather not get into. This past year has been shit. Urghhh.

    No relief or resolution in sight. :wall: But that's me.

    You are not alone,none of you are,.....

    Get the **** out of the wilderness,would ya? :wave::wave:

    KB

  5. Hi all,

    I have to vent because I feel like the illness I've lived with for the past 5 years has caused my brother to start picking up on the habits and mannerisms I know so well.

    It's good your venting!Get it out!And if feel the need to go off,send me a PM,ok?

    You don't know this is the cause.It is human nature to blame oneself for the problems of others.I am not trying to be harsh here but the illness can run in a family.

    He's not eating at all anymore. He lashes out at all of us in anger. He goes to bed at 7 pm so he doesn't have to 'think about food' and lies under the covers and cries. I sit behind the bedroom door and listen to him and quietly sob because I know what he's feeling.

    Both he and you need some help.These things are cries for it.Are you and he getting any?I am not getting personal,information is need and if,again a PM is a better way to discuss it,...

    I know how deep his wounds are and I don't know how to reach out to him because a) I feel like I'm partially responsible for wounding him so deeply and B ) I feel like a complete hypocrite because I am just as messed up as he is and a part of me feels jealously that he has so much control.. and then I feel like a horrible person, deep down inside.

    Step #1: heal thyself.You will never be able to reach out to him until you are healed.

    Next,stop blaming yourself.There is only one thing you can take control of; YOU!And your brother doesn't have control.

    I feel like I didn't give him enough love, like I used my illness as a reason to punish everyone else when I was his age... and I never realized how much damage I caused until now, now that I see how hurtful it is from an outsiders point of view. I don't know the depth of his depression.. as far as I know he's not eating and gets angry very quickly.. a part of me fears that it's only a matter of time before he starts dabbling in the more self-destructive things I did a few years ago. I really don't know how to deal with it.. my youngest brother is scared to death of what he might do to him.. I suspect he gets violent from time to time and berates him emotionally and verbally. My mom is at the end of her rope and I don't know how to help her. Everyone tells me it's not my problem to fix, but I feel so much guilt for not trying to fix such a broken family.. partly because I feel broken, too.

    Again,if this too much,I'd like to know your ages.A guess,let your Mom be the adult/parent.Is she?I know hard questions,sorry.

    B,get your self righted,you putting too much on yourself,IMVHO.

    I don't mean to make this a pity party... forgive me. It's just suffocating to be here at home.. a place where I should find solace and happiness has turned into a place where I'm reminded of my failures and bad influence.

    There is nothing to forgive.We are hear to help.

    Chin up!KB

  6. Hi all,

    She does not interest me. She is not my type. I would consider her a 6 out of 10. She looks like the gril next door. I am not really into that.

    I'll bet the feeling is mutual,...

    Rating someone from a few internet pics,.....that is why your spats,...

    Hey,shifty,your not going to get a date with supermodel,and the girl next door is not going to date you,neither ..... :rolleyes:

    KB

  7. Hi all,

    Not to make excuses, because I know better than anyone that is cycle of self-destruction I've gotten myself into has continued--interrupted only temporarily by brief moments of self-restraint-- for the better part of the last three years. It's just very hard for me to make the leap to committing to a therapist because I've been burned by one before. It's a long story, but the therapist I saw for the better part of a year was the mother of one of my high school classmates and although the immediate effects of my condition weren't exactly hidden from everyone else, I found out this therapist told her daughter about our sessions and she went and told everyone else.. teachers included.. it was a very humiliating experience. Add to this an experience I had last year with an ex-roommate (mothers got involved, I had to take a drug test/be psychologically evaluated by the housing board) and I hate opening up to people about my condition for fear of being judged and/or exposed against my will.. like it would make good gossip fodder for some individuals that would get wind of it. I know ultimately it's my duty to myself--namely my sanity and happiness-- that requires me to take a proactive approach to getting help. It's the process of getting the ball moving that I find so hard.

    Ethics?B-s***! How about jail? :angry: How about a Louisville Slugger to the back of your empty head?!?Damn it!The violation of trust,........rrrrr,....

    Had to get that out. <_<

    Bustle,don't know you,but do realize from the post above how much healing you just gave yourself?This is just a saying; but that took balls!I'm proud of you!

    But, as I've been telling myself for a very, very long time during this arduous stop-go-stop-go process.. you can keep telling yourself "tomorrow will be different.. tommorow I will change..." but ultimately, tomorrow never comes.. it has to be today.

    It's a daily process,not fun to sure and the meds,therapy,etc can wear a person down as much as the process.One thing can help,try starting to forgive yourself.Yep,you.Start there. :)

    As stated before,any and all can PM me,if they need to talk/vent/rage.

    KB

  8. Hi all,

    Don't worry about it. I think most people go through bouts of self loathing. I know i have.

    The 'problem' spats is they do 'worry' about it,all the f--- time,it's called depression. <_<

    You,sir should PM also.

    KB

  9. Hi all,

    Thank you very much, KB

    I can't tell you how much I'm relieved.

    I will PM you if anything is bothering me.

    I read a thread that you have some type of job helping rape victims.

    Anytime DeepBlackZeppelin.Your always welcome!

    Please do.

    Yes.

    What does one do,with 3 old potatoes and left-over Italian sausages? :blink:

    Make a hash! :D

    Kevin.

  10. Hi all,

    It's not as easy as following a proverb. Going through all these experiences I went through, my perception on helping myself vs helping others is thrown out of whack. Maybe I do need to make myself happy first, but I don't ever fully realize it.

    And I guess I sacrifice my happiness for my family members because I was brought up to feel guilty. I guess I'm saying I'm sacrificing my personal happiness by not living life like most teenagers do[dating and all that] even though I want to. I dedicate time to helping my family even if I feel as it's too much dedication. Sometimes, they can help themselves.

    Also, everyone except for my father, thinks I'm guilty for being sexually assaulted as a little child. You see, I feel guilty about something I shouldn't. If I told anyone, I'd bring a bad reputation to the family. It was all a hype though because I did get external help. But from the time I was 12 to when I was 17, I guess I did sacrifice so much out of..... "guilt"

    I appreciate you trying to help, I really do, it's just that it's never been an easy ride at all.

    Every night, I've been getting nightmares about being brutally raped, because somehow I feel as if I deserve it because the first perpetrator was able to escape.

    But, I will help myself. Following a proverb just doesn't register with me at the moment.

    That 'proverb',......I just made that up.

    First,your post,above has already shown how well you have confronted yourself.Honesty like that is tough in public and tougher to yourself!

    It's not about being happy,it's about being comfortable in your own skin,contentment with who you are.

    Now wait a minute,.....I'm going to get graphic folks!

    Also, everyone except for my father, thinks I'm guilty for being sexually assaulted as a little child.

    Go tell your father,right now how much you love him!You kick others right to the curb with glee!They are not your family/friends.

    If I told anyone, I'd bring a bad reputation to the family.

    Except for your father,your family already has a bad reputation.As a-you-know.

    Never said it was going to be easy.I never said family is kind, all I am saying is,somehow in this crazy world,a few of us still give a damn.For complete strangers,for I have known the kindness of them.For they have pulled my sorry arse up, out of the gutter.

    I have stated before,you need to talk,well type. :) you PM me.Glad to help.

    Chin up,kid!

    KB

  11. Hi all,

    Trust me, I also focus so much on my family. I sacrifice a lot for them.

    But sometimes, strategically planning ways to cause the least offense to our family, we need to focus on ourselves and make ourselves feel better :console:

    "If, we can not in ourselves be content,how can we expect others?"

    DBZ,(if I may),doing is not sacrificing .One is free will,the other is guilt.Big difference.

    Again,any who,who wants to talk,...... :)

    KB

  12. Hi all,

    The term itself is wrong. There is depression as you describe which is normal. The debilitating kind is something else and should not even be called depression in order to differentiate it. I think this step would make things more understandable to people that have no idea what this type of depression does. It is not depression but something else..hmm, since there is not a proper name yet I will call it No Quarter disease...yeah, thats it...seriously, it needs a different title to alleviate the society stigma associated with normal depression

    Not at all.Depression grows,like a fungus,upon itself.

    KB

  13. Hi all,

    Today has been a particularly bad day. I felt myself slip into a self-loathing kind of depression and did something to myself I hadn't done in a while.

    I'm still kind of mopey right now. I can't seem to shake myself out of it.

    As I have stated before,you can ALL PM,write to me about this.No problem,glad to help.

    And to all those who think we do not have problems,we do,...same as you,....it is a degree,....

    Let others 'loath' you,not yourself,...... :)

    KB

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