I am pretty down and sad this evening............saw the surgeon today, and the required pre-surgical shrink eval and the heart guy for cardiac clearance.........I thought, well at least I will get my first surgery, for the pain is intolerable, plus all the bleeding ulcers and all that comes with that.............Been keeping all my pre-op appointments, consultations, support groups, classes, etc, so I just KNEW this would be the month for the first surgery and relief from all the pain, bleed...